Day 100

April 10, 2021

Happy Birthday Thomas

I am so blessed.  Today I spent a lot of it high on a mountain top with 100 or so people, many of whom I've known most of my life, mourning a 24 year old's life.  His cousin, Kora, my goddaughter demanded that we pay attention to what Trevor gave to the world instead of focusing on how much he would have given.  She asked that like him we give kindness, curiosity and humor in our life spreading those things to others.  She made me cry.  Her mother, grandparents and cousins made me smile and nod in agreement, but she made me cry.  She showed me how blessed my life is.

I've lost a child in my life, but not one that I raised for 24 years, one I watched develop and negotiate and bloom.  There are no words to give Kora's Aunt Jeannie and Uncle Ben, no words at all.  But she did a pretty damn good job trying.  She honored her "little cousin."

I have attended many functions with this family, probably too many funerals.  But we've done weddings and graduations and showers and all of those big events together. When I am with them all it takes me down a big memory lane and I get to remember all that I've been given in this world.. Thank you!  RIP Trevor.  I am so sorry you are gone. 

The rookery is expanding.  There was another new nest today and 12 heron.  Tomorrow I will focus on them, but today I will just post the pictures and be in awe of life.  

At the end of the day I went to Edite's for a really nice dinner and sat in the garden and listened to birds and caught up with my good friend.  Now I'm going to bed.  My heart is heavy.