Day 270

September 27, 2021

Learning to like myself as an edgy woman

There has been a big change at the rookery, all of the reeds and cattails have turned brown.  All of the rich green is gone.  The only birds left are ducks and I saw some handsome ones today.  There were green winged teals and a pair of wood ducks and a very big one flew over me.  

I haven't seen the spirit come out of this tree in a long time, but she is there today.  Usually she appears when it is misty out, but everything was dry today.  She was very present.

The sunset is coming so early now.  Gregg and I met up on top of Poets Seat at 6 and this was already happening.  It was only happening in one part of the horizon, the rest was clouds.

But for some reason once it was down the city was lit up.  It seems much brighter tonight than usual.

Trying to organize my self caretaking in more concrete ways.  I'm balancing between being social and being with myself without it being isolating.  This is something I have never learned how to do.  I've always assumed it has to do with being the middle child of seven.  It is a struggle for me and I know that it is effecting my health at this point.  I need to do another "Heron" like project.