Day 298

October 25, 2021

Not cold enough for mounds of snow

This morning i returned to Water Therapy having been gone for 19 months.  I knew I would feel right at home in the water, I knew my body would find the rhythm and the strokes rapidly, but I didn't know that having that particular group of people yell my name would make me cry.  God, have I missed community. 

I am back, Mon, Wed and Fri.  I am back.  

It all made me go back to the rookery.  Rookery, you took the place of that group and you served me well.  Thank you.  Now I have both of you.

It really has been love I've been wrestling with this past 2  months, love and what it means in my life and what I expect from it. 

It was 2 months ago that I was asked what I needed to feel safe in love.  I still don't know the answer, but i have spent more time sitting with it than I've ever done before.  

Tonight we are supposed to get a rain storm equal to a blizzard.  I love listening to wind from the safety of my bed, from the warmth of my bed. 

I want to be strong enough to go to Tuscany with my niece, Sarah and write for 3 weeks.  That's a goal.  I want to be strong enough to travel, see more and write in beautiful places.