Day 52

February 21, 2022

Happy Birthday, David, my wonderful friend.  Happy Birthday.

The morning light was beautiful and getting into the water and hanging was terrific.  I really needed it this morning.

Telling the difference between trauma buttons and automatic response and just plain grief is difficult unless it temporarily feels like a granite shaft is falling down on your head.  Then you know its a trauma response and it is temporary, but what a blow?

I am reopening my page on adoption and first mothers on Facebook.  The play is definitely going to be challenging for me, but I think the page may help create support.

I did get a ride in today.  That was a blessing.  I rmemberedd what it feels like to get away from everything. 

And I met Terry at the Green River Cemetery and watched a lovely sunset.

I feel as though I have been crying for a week, my head is cloudy and light and, yeah, I think I got squashed by a granite wall last night.

It's important to keep these voices coming.  If you are around Greenfield check out the Lava Center's calendar.  This work is important.  

I want to hold a dinner party and invite Rhiannon Giddens and Yoyo Ma to it.  Today is Rhiannon's birthday, too.  Maybe at the banjo conference this summer I will be able to do that.  Do you think Yoyo will come over the Berkshires to participate in a national banjo conference?  I hope so.  If you are interested in the banjo conference check Michael Nix's website out.  He is the Facilitator.