Day 194

July 13, 2022

What is beautiful in your life?

I am having a difficult time processing Jana's death.

2 hawk or maybe 1 hawk and 1 eagle and an aeroplane, and it is 86 at 5:15 and more than a little sticky.

I'm having a  hard time accepting the violence surrounding the unthinkable untimely death of Jana.  It's not about sadness, for me, it's about tragedy, it's about too much pain, too much trauma and more and more young violence. 

I have that feeling that my edges are pulling up off of reality.  I'm not sure I have ever described that feeling accurately, but it is when I know grief has taken over the driving.

The rookery is hot, silent, doesn't feel peaceful to me today.

Clouds covered all of the western sky during sunset and kept creeping to the east while I waited for the moon to rise.  I lost patience. I'm hoping it is visible and someone did catch it.